Paranoid, but adventurous

Spring break was last week and I was able to get a ride from a good friend. It was sooooo good to see my family again. We went to an Asian restaurant and I enjoyed being home. But now I’m at school again, and I’m glad. I’ve made some good friends here and I missed them. The semester is a little more than half over and Geneva won’t let you forget. They are already having students meet with their adviser to pick their next classes for next semester.

I also went back to College Hill Station. Though it will probably be the last time I go. One, I don’t know how allowed I am to be there. Two, It is in really bad shape. Tis abandoned after all. It’s really sad to see it just sitting there though. When I go in I can almost hear, the train whistle, “ALL ABOARD!” The hustle and bustle of passengers, there was even one room that had desks in it…*Brrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing* “College hill Station…how can I help you?” The *tak-tak* of type writers, I almost expect the building to bring itself back to life right before my eyes. To jerk its floor boards back into place. It’s paint to spread and grow more vibrant. To feel the floor boards above me move with the weight of employees. To have time recede and reveal once was.

On a more serious note, when I was going through middle school and high school, each week was fast paced but remained the same. Yes things would change slightly as in life, but things seemed to stay for the most part consistent.  But ever since last summer, it feels like my life has suddenly jerked itself into motion. I’m moving forward fast, and I can’t slow down. Even when I went home, the normal I once knew was gone. Or, maybe it’s the other way around. I am no longer who I was, God is transforming me, and I can’t go back to who I used to be, I am a different person.  Kind of like the end of “The Lord of the Rings.” Frodo and his friends are sitting down for a drink while the rest of the room is buzzing with excitement over a big pumpkin. Like them, I am no longer the same; I’m becoming who I’m supposed to be.